habit

once upon a time

of giggles and heartbreak

of gossip and hours of non-stop laughter

of the need for each other

of bestfriend-ship
no syntax no semantics

now

of continuous strain and repair

and then some more

of the irreparable

and the constant need for all that was

no periods no commas 

just several long uncomfortable pauses

just a constant tug of war across a bridge that has been long burnt